Okay, wow. It has been a really long time since I’ve posted a blog here. Not only that, but I’ve pretty much vanished from Twitter and Facebook for all but a few quick appearances.
I didn’t mean to. Really! But if that’s true, then where the heck was I?
It’s just who I am.
I never actually quit going to Twitter or Facebook, or even stopped visiting the site. I lurked, I read, and I kept my mouth shut. It’s how I’ve always been. I never get involved in things if I don’t have to. I never speak up unless someone makes me, and even then, I say as little as possible, as fast as possible. I don’t like talking about myself or what I’m doing, even if it is something I really care about, to anyone that I don’t know really well. I always feel embarrassed and worried that I’m being self-centered or something.
But I can’t help it. I try hard to get involved, to put myself out there so people know who in the heck I am. I don’t want to be that anonymous guy who writes those books over there. I’d much rather get to know readers, other authors, editors, bloggers, and anyone else involved in publishing. I don’t want to go it alone.
Yet every time I try, I end up pulling back into myself. I’m not afraid people will laugh at me or mock me. People will and really, I don’t care. I can’t please everyone, and that’s fine. I try not to offend people on purpose and if someone were to come here and bad mouth me or anyone else in a cruel manner, I’d simply block them without retaliation. I won’t stand for that kind of stuff, but I’m not going to stoop to that level either.
So, what can I do?
For starters, I’m going to try harder to actually post something here every other week or so. Maybe I’ll magically start writing something once a week, maybe even twice, but more than that is unlikely. It’s going to be hard enough to find something to say twice a month, let alone once a day. Hopefully I’ll get through this without my head exploding.
And what else? Well, I’m going to try to update Twitter and Facebook more regularly. I’ll stop worrying whether or not I’m annoying everyone by making a post or butting into a public conversation. I mean, that’s what this stuff is for, right?!
Now, if I start slacking off and go a few days without posting somewhere, speak up! Prod me, email me, @ reply me on Twitter, anything to get me going again. I hate being a slacker in anything, but sometimes I need a big old push off the cliff. Don’t worry, I tend to land on my feet…or at least bounce a few times, rather than splattering on the rocks.